Remembrance Of All Things

After finally having a full nights sleep, something that has been lacking for so very long. I awoke to the revelation that my Father in heaven, my Creator through the Mercy of my Lord Jesus, revealed to me that my previous fictional books were only for that season, and that season is long gone.

I have been getting for the past year: “Behold I do a new thing”.

And this new thing is; a living story.

I am writing about my current day/s, and I will reflect back on past days, interweaving these days into; today.

Or seasons, these long seasons of where no-one will accept my Boundaries and even the simple word: NO.

I will now type in from my Holy Bible the; longer version of what I had originally had on my homepage, these Powerful words of what my Lord Jesus said:

Not Peace, but a Sword

“Do not think that I have come to bring peace to the earth; I have not come to bring peace, but a sword.

For I have come to set a man against his father, and a daughter against her mother, and a daughter in-law against her mother in-law; and one’s foes will be members of one’s own household.

Whoever loves father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; and whoever loves son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me; and whoever does not take up the cross and follow me is not worthy of me. Those who find their life will lose it, and those who lose their life for my sake will find it.”

Gospel of Matthew. Chapter 10, verses 34-39. All references to the Sacred Holy Scriptures in my website are from: The new revised standard version of: The Holy Bible.

These Sacred, Holy and Powerful words spoken by my Lord Jesus; the Living Word, I have been reading for over 30 years.

I have been asking all my life: Almighty God; “why doesn’t anyone respect my Boundaries, and constantly treat me with such awful disrespect, and especially when I answer people: I will NOT do that, or I just simply say: NO to them?”

“Why do I keep being ignored or abused when I try and stand my ground, firmly anchored in You?”

My answer was: “Don’t you remember the ways I taught you how to deal with these people with hearts of stone, eyes that do not see, or ears that do not hear; these ones who first hated me?”

I answered, “yes I do remember, and thank You: You have been bringing all things to my remembrance for the past year”.

“I do remember, all Your ways; that You have taught me”.

Here I will need to go back to one of my yesterdays, the season of 42 years of dreadful abuses from the biological mother, and the daily abuses from her.

My conception; as said by the biological mother and confirmed by many other ex family members. The name; ‘no-one’ forced upon me. I was never meant to be, that I was nothing; only a drain of all goodness from the biological mother’s body.

Well; this is impossible; as my Creator knew me before He even laid the foundation of this world, and everything in it and everything in the skies that we do and do not see.

However, I had this said to me on a daily basis, especially on my Birthdays. 2 stories I would be told of the attempted, and failed abortion; as there were other babies aborted before me, or babies sacrificed as soon as they were born. None of these ones were registered as; live Births; (No Birth Certificates).

But my Creator in His Loving Mercy; protected me even then, so very long ago; when I was in that womb of gloom; being a womb of death, rather than a womb for new life.

My life is in my Creator’s Loving Hands, and always has been.

And as for being called; ‘no-one’, well it sort of back fired for my ex family, as I would also get called this every time before we would go out in public.

I chose to then; blurt out everything my ex family was doing to all us children, to everyone I could see in public places.

The 2 stories about this failed abortion of me; don’t really matter, I have re-lived this memory many times throughout my life; and I thank my Creator that I have not needed to re-live this first abuse against me for a couple of decades. Amen.

So I have no problem with the word; no-one; as I consistently gave all the dreadful names that were forced upon me; to my Father in heaven; and sometimes to my Lord Jesus, as I know He loves me, the Bible tells me so.

This was the first song I did learn when I briefly went to Sunday School. However that is another living story from my yesterdays, and not one for this post; today.

Some of you may be wondering what happened when I handed over to Michael Mathews; my 5 page handwritten list of Boundaries?

I will show you his response written back to me; all a bit silly as we are sharing the same house; at this moment in time. However; I did tell him never to speak to me again, not that my words stop him speaking at me.

My only reply to Michael Mathews; is what I have highlighted in yellow; my apologies as I am still having issues with getting the edited copies up; how I miss typing all this junk up, and printing it out for Michael Mathews; as it is much clearer to read. Maybe I will buy a new printer, just for myself to use…there are good sales on in several places, at the moment.

I state here; I needed a full working computer, not a 13 inch tablet, with a keyboard in its cover, and mouse. It also has 4 speakers, unlike Michael Mathews’ old portable laptop; which the speakers have blown in.

I already have a small older tablet, but there have been many times with stupid internet, thank God I took this back into my hands and for the first time, I now have working internet.

And of course not a day passes by where I am not called; wicked, hateful, cruel, unloving, etc. etc…it’s a very long list, and I can’t be bothered anymore.

I find it amazing that this man always brings up anyone’s and everyone’s sins, yet has NO sin himself? There is a Scripture about this; but I will let you look it up for yourselves.

I have heard and read all this so many times now; it has become meaningless to me, and I really thank Almighty God, that it is so.

I also do need to go and finish cleaning up the other website he opened, that I have been paying for every year; both sites, this one since around June 2014, and his called; truth-australia.com since 2019.

I would appreciate any suggestions on a new name for his website, before I officially hand it over to him. My thoughts on a new name have become too generic, no pizazz.

Tuesday 17th June 2025, the above site was closed down.

I can’t remember when the second one was opened; I have been paying his as well; except this year: I made him pay for the first time; both the websites.

Tuesday 17th June 2025, all monies were returned to Michael Mathews Bank Account. Refer Post: In the storm, I have yet still to add the links with appropriate posts.

This has been a bitter pill to swallow; watching him daily reposting content whilst I haven’t been able to get online. I have also needed to pray much about this; as I do not want any bitterness in my heart.

I am constantly told I am in extreme anxiety and trauma?

Guess what?

I am not in extreme anxiety and trauma. I am quietly waiting on Almighty God and His perfect Way, and His perfect timing.

And the comments about the police, apparently I am supposed to be very fearful of them, I don’t know why?

Oh, of course I know why I am supposed to be very fearful of the police, the incomplete police statement I did in Mallacoota, Victoria.

The incomplete statement that was attempted to be done: NOT in God’s perfect timing; as I had even begged Michael Mathews, that I was not ready to go and make a statement of my childhood abuses to the police.

This stupidity done only took a day and half of; nothing much said by me.

By the way; the name stupid is what I have always called the evil one, and you all know who I mean, as I don’t give that one any recognistion.

I told Michael Mathews, “this is: NOT the time for me to be making a police statement”; but as per usual I got a lot of false guilt and shame over this.

To the point that I would be adding to my ex family’s sins by not making a statement. I would be aiding and abetting in their crimes.

He likes to use a lot of legal words; he does actually believe he is the perfect Judge, Jury and Executioner.

Yet I get told daily, that I live in some sort of fantasy, and I am delusional.

So I will show the 2 pages I wrote for Michael Mathews today, written by me.

I have been so busy today bringing in the firewood, looking for something to use as a poker, any sort of fire tools. I had to go out into the shed and find some of Michael Mathews old plumbing and builders tools to use; until I can go and buy proper ones.

Naughty me, I haven’t handed him the yellow highlighted response from me, and these other 2 pages I wrote early this morning.

I always look on the positive side of things, bringing in all the fire wood on my wheelie walker that has no brakes, will help me gain back some muscle tone.

So, I had better go and hand to Michael Mathews his 3 pages of junk, at least I will be able to burn it all later, it will save me needing to buy a paper shredder.

I am now going to have my dinner, sitting by this lovely fire.

P.S. I have only borrowed a spare tyre jack iron, not real tools.

God bless you, and may He keep you in His perfect Ways.

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A little bit fishy

Thank you Baldmichael, I also enjoyed your Bread making for beginners.

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Season Over

It is with much sadness I write this post today, however my Father in heaven in His Mercy has declared this very long season of over 20 years is finished.

This WordPress Site was set up in 2014, under duress by both Michael Mathews and Aletha Blayse, first person in impatience and not waiting on God’s perfect timing and ignoring the previous work I had done, which was only approx: 3 weeks from conclusion.

This work I had done in Christ was a fictional book I had written in the rare occasion when I had a working computer. I had sent excerpts from the 1st book of 3; to 2 Publishing Houses in the USA, who were both willing to publish my total of 3 books. This work was over ridden by the impatience of NOW, the false guilt and shame loaded onto me that the work I did in Christ was not good enough and would not help younger family members still trapped in Ritual Abuse/s.

The second person was looking for money, re; my ex family name/s: Farthing and Harmer, this woman also shamed me and guilted me into starting this blogsite.

However it has been aptly named, and I have tried very hard to keep it mellow with occult rituals, etc. Another reason why I have removed so much content, as I do not believe this world needs more violence, and another reason I have removed so many useless posts on nonsense, eg: un-needed homelessness, etc.

I am only adding a very brief summary of the past few months of living with Michael John Mathews, unfortunately I have needed to hand write this as he had destroyed his own, and the only working printer several days ago. And much to my dismay I am back to writing pen on paper; the dinosaur way to do things.

I am currently using a new OS, which also is making things harder to do, as I am still only learning this new system, and I am having trouble loading up these hand written letters after I have edited them, they are not as clear to read as anything typed, naturally; and I have only the choice of using the non edited copies, that aren’t as clear as the edited ones, and with my address listed, that I had erased out; and I am not impressed with this, but then again this house has a total of 6 addresses, so whatever.

I will start with the 5 pages: Boundaries, dated Tuesday 10th June 2025. What is greatly needed in this home, who Almighty God reigns over. My answered prayers. Almighty God; my protection, my hope and my love eteranlly. Amen.

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This 5 page letter I couldn’t load into my media here on the day, it was loaded the next day, now with Michael John Mathews comments added, whatever. I know when the physical separation is completed, I will no doubt have much gaslighting and smear campaigns, and this is nothing new as he has been doing this all along, only some bizarre praise with blogposts where he has added himself into my victim status.

And now I will add today’s handwritten 4 page letter, my final letter to him. The previous letter on: Boundaries was naturally ignored. So Be It.

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Michael John Mathews has not received todays letter yet, as it it midday and he usually casually gets out of bed between 1 – 2pm everyday, then he will receive it when he arises; from this time of day onwards is when his cruel games begin.

I have learnt to ignore the many hate words, not only aimed at myself, but towards everybody. The mocking not of only my own faith, but everyone else’s, especially Jewish people. But of course this hate talk also includes: Muslims, Christians, and any other people with their own religious beliefs.

I hear this hate speaking; non stop everyday and as every person belonging to Christ Jesus knows from the Holy Bible; we are not to judge anyone outside of our faith. We do not know what God is doing in the hearts and minds of people/s He is calling.

I can only conclude with: God will NOT be mocked. And I take no joy in any of this. Amen.

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Reflections on seasons

As I am now spiritually free, I am quietly waiting on Almighty God without trying to help Him.

I believe every Christian would agree, we sometimes try and help God, for our different reasons.

The first thing I wake up to daily, as I have placed this where I can read it as soon as I awaken; “Be still and know I am God”. Psalm 46: 10.

This may seem easy, I have read this every morning for decades, and I still need to read this every morning. Why? Well sometimes we children of God, think we understand what we need, but of course we only see such a tiny time line; when God sees the very beginning until the very end.

We don’t know what this day will bring, yesterday is over, and tomorrow we cannot see.

And it’s when I am in the winter seasons I need these short, simple words from my Father, the most; as only He knows exactly what I need, and when I need it.

In these winter seasons, they can feel so long, and the same word that seems to appear everywhere I look is: Perseverance.

So with this, I will add the beautiful words of our Lord Jesus from His Sermon on the mount, when He was Son of man, Son of God and walked amongst mankind.

“Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

“Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.

“Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.

“Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.

“Blessed are the merciful, for they will receive mercy.

“Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God.

“Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called children of God.

“Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness’ sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

“Blessed are you when people revile you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account. Rejoice and be glad, for your reward is great in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you”.

Gospel of Matthew. Chapter 5: Verses 3 – 11. The New Revised Standard Version of the Holy Bible.

These Holy words spoken, make the word: Perseverance, very meaningful.

By being still and knowing my God looks after me; in every way, then I only need to persevere in these winter seasons, as all seasons do come to an end, and after winter is spring; a wonderful season of re-growth; and brand new growth.

My prayer today; I hope with my heart; these Sacred Words, bring you comfort and peace. Amen.

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A New Day

Gods mercies are new every morning, Great is His faithfullness; and whom the Son sets free; is free indeed.

Standing strong in my Lord Jesus, and waiting on Gods perfect timing, Gods perfect will and Almighty Gods perfect Love, His great Love for me, and all His children in the refining times.

My prayer; all who visit here today be blessed, you are not alone. Amen

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A Child Like Faith

WordPress, can you please stop asking me to subscribe to another site that also uses WordPress when I try and leave a comment, its getting tiring with the multiple times I have now subscribed, and can I please stop getting booted out of my own site when trying to leave a comment as well! I never used to have these issues, and; no I do not have the time to go and do hundreds of hours; on how to use WordPress, thank you.

What does Christ Jesus mean when he said; unless you have Faith like a child, you will not enter into the Kingdom of heaven?

I find this answer to be simple, but then again I love simple.

A young child will answer, with a black or white answer, yes or no. There are no shades of grey, no ifs, buts, or maybes.

This in itself also goes with our teachings, let your yes be yes, and your no be no, as anything other than this is from the evil one.

So I would now like to add another Youtube music video, I have found this one stirs my imagination, my child like; simple Faith, where as our Lord Jesus returns in His heavenly Glory, as King of Kings, and ALL of creation will bow down; I see in my imagination even the trees bowing down to Him.

Please like and encourage our brothers and sisters in Christ for their works in our Lord Jesus.

Thank you CharisStudio for your wonderful works, with these beautiful songs in our Lord Jesus.

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Pentecost

What is today in the Southern Hemisphere, and at a later time for the Northern Hemisphere: Pentecost?

It is an important day for all the body of Christ; being ALL who belong to Him, through His saving Grace, our Lord and Saviour and the only way to belong to Almighty God.

Pentecost is a day where our Lord Jesus told us that He would pray to the Father for Him to send us the Helper; this Helper is of course: Almighty God’s Holy Spirit, who is our Teacher, Healer, and keeps us all in God’s will.

And yes we still are here in mere mortal bodies and still need to contend with our flesh; ie: we are to put to death all fleshly desires, as nothing good comes from the flesh. This I have learnt the hard way, I hope others reading this don’t stray off the straight and narrow path as I have done…it causes much grief and many sorrows. Again the need to put to death the flesh, to be crucified daily in our Lord Jesus. Reference even with the book of Job. We all struggle with the flesh, that is contrary to the Holy Spirit.

I can only thank my Father in heaven, the God of all creation and my Creator who knew me before He even laid the foundation for this world, and everything in it, along with all we see in the skies, day and night, He even calls every star by its name, what an amazing God we have, and an imagination and memory that we cannot even begin to comprehend, a very deep gratitude for His great Love for me, that He would send His only begotten Son, to cleanse me of all my sins.

And so very Merciful, forgiveness everyday, for all His children, no matter how often we have worked out of His perfect timing.

I am adding my Baby Baptism Certificate, something I have wanted to add here for a very long time. This was my second Miracle from my Father, my Creator and has been the biggest blessing in my life.

Only in my adult years have I even been able to look at this, as when I was younger and still living under the satanic ex-family, it was always kept out of my sight.

It was a true miracle for not only myself as a toddler, but for my siblings as well; and the fact that it took 2 missionary nuns from New Zealand to firstly come to the school where my older sister: Janet and older ex-brother: Tony attended, these 2 nuns were then brought to the house, when I was only 15 months old and shamed both the ex-parents into having all their children Baptised in the name of the: Father, Son and Holy Spirit.

The ex-parents separated and divorced not much later after this, and we all ended up living in what I have always called; ‘the house from hell’…… so be it.

I will also type in the words, as this certificate was done back in the 1960’s and the fonts, with its colours are hard to read, and it is also old and worn now too, much like myself.

A DAILY PRAYER

Almighty and Everliving GOD, defend me, Thy servant, with Thy heavenly Grace, that I may continue Thine for ever; and daily increase in Thy Holy Spirit more and more until I come unto Thine Everlasting Kingdom through our Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.

As can be seen on my Baby Baptism Certificate, I was not allowed to later be Confirmed or have Holy Communion. However my dearly loved sister: Janet, who is also sleeping, readers would need to refer to the added PAGE of what happened to my much loved older sister, she went to a different Parish to continue to be Confirmed and have Holy Communion. After she had seen how the local Church of England: All Saints, North Footscray, Melbourne, Australia, had treated me when I was 4 years old; 1966.

Unfortunately she also did not find the help that we all so desperately needed, and she too got Church abuses…my heart is very heavy, with so many sorrows.

I have added another Healing YouTube music video by Rev Adams, I thank him as I feel his heart in these songs of prayer.

Today: Pentecost.

FOOTNOTE: I am denied yet again access to Michael Mathews printer/scanner….I have had this frustration for years with non working equipment everywhere we live, I know I can be angry, but I also know I am not allowed to sin in my anger, now I will also need to withdraw and go and pray, re; the flesh. Even our Lord Jesus needed to retreat and pray after upending the money changers tables….

I will come back and add my Baby Baptism Certificate to this post, after I find another way to do so, the one I have wanted to add to a post for many, many years!

And again a warning for ALL Australian Authorities, you are going to receive the regurgitated same paperwork, with more added from Michael Mathews, and yes you do have a choice to discard, delete, throw in the trash this shit I keep being swamped with.

And HELLO, I can use this word in its correct context, I keep telling you all I am living with a madman, 24/7, what part of this are you NOT getting? I have told you I do not feel safe, how can I? He’s behaviour gets more and more bizarre daily, and he is a danger to me….wheelie walkers assembled by this man, with NO brakes, locked out of the house, my car battery removed out of my car, heating and lights turned off on me in the middle of winter, pushed daily into objects, walls, etc, as for some bizarre reason he doesn’t even see me standing right in front of him, as he is living in some delusional fantasy, where the whole world and every person in it, is only here to serve him. RE: Narcissism and Gaslighting.

And of course, mental, verbal, emotional and physical abuses for over 20 years done to myself by Michael Mathews.

I am trying very hard to not be disgusted with myself; having previously being diagnosed with the mental illness; depression, back in 2011-2, approx. when in fact it was heartaches, grief and overwhelming sorrows, but as this worldly system does not acknowledge the spiritual aspects of people, then so be it.

At the very least start acknowledging the mental aspects of this lunatic who put himself up as my carer, and receives an allowance (paid money) for this!

And Medicare, the same office and services as Centrelink, Child Support, etc in Australia, who I have asked repeatedly to please remove this man as my paid carer…as I have informed you so many times I have NOT been able to do an online account within all your services…even with Centrelink staff trying to set it up. I cannot keep driving around with the recent injuries I have sustained, and no, not because I would be a danger when driving, but because I end up in too much pain after extended periods of driving with extra injuries.

Thank you again Rev Adams, your heart is very strong when you sing these wonderful prayers to our Father and our Lord Jesus

Now I will retreat and pray…………………..Selah

I have found another way to get this Baptism Certificate on here, google photos did not work either. I am currently transitioning into a different OS, thank you all for your patience.

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For Daniel my dearly beloved brother

Thank you: Rev James

My older brother who I dearly miss, our times were also cut short and we were also pulled apart; all because we loved each other.

This love we have always shared, in our Lord Jesus, you and me, and me and you.

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A long night reminiscing

Thank you: Rev Adams

Merciful God gives the greatest miracle to woman, the miracle of new life, a new life grown and knitted together within the woman, with all the emotions needed to protect this new life, that is also a part of her. This is the beginning of a deep love that never ends; even when this mother and child are pulled apart and away from each other.

The miracle of a daughter’s love; gentle and kind, always loving, always forgiving. The bond of mother and daughter, where the mother even asks, who is the mother, and who is the daughter?

As the daughter also loved her mother and protected her too: Not only did she protect, care and deeply love her mother; but also her little brother, as this little girl knew; love is eternal, has no limits, and was her heartfelt desire to share her love.

May my little girl: Erin Sondra; rest in peace. 24.07.1987 – 18.06.1992. Thank you my Father for your beautiful love. I thank You for blessing me with such a truly loving and caring little girl.

Her little brother, my young son; we also have been pulled apart from love and apart from each other.

My prayers when I was only 3 years old, please my Father, my Jesus; if I am blessed with children, help me to protect them and love them as You love me.

I did not expect you, you are a true miracle from my God; and are my complete blessing. The blessing I asked for so very long ago; a daughter and a son to love the rest of my days.

I ask for your forgiveness; as this your older sister taught you this very well, with her love and protection she joyfully shared with you. And after your loving sister: Erin slept I taught you love, kindness, mercy and forgiveness as well; my hope, you remember these times in your young life.

I am grateful that I can share this song with you today, mother and child, this love that has no end; just heartache from our time together cut short.

Thank you: Rev Adams

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Narcissists and Gaslighting

I have been searching trying to find out what has been going on, I grew up with an extremely narcissistic mother, however I have found a video on covert narcissists, worsening with age.

This seemed more fitting, along with the gaslighting I have had for 20+ years, however I also cannot ignore the dark spiritual problems.

I have added another YouTube video on this subject ( not the one on coverts worsening with age ), as I really do not know what else to call this, nor at this time its reference in the Holy Bible.

My hope that it may help someone else living with this type of person, and the fears that they try and force upon you, the domination and control of another person, as these types of people just seem to be void of anything/everything but their own wants, paranoia, and living in some bizarre fantasy. And I cannot emphasise this strongly enough; devoid of LOVE.

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